So I did end up sleeping about 4 to 5:30. I even ate breakfast before going to bed... that was fun. I don't think I have ever done that before.
So my wife is coming to the house today to get some things. She wanted me to leave but I am working so I have to be at home. I will be locked in my office while she is here, by her request. I guess I am more of a stress on her then I imagined. I seem to look at simple quarrels between people a lot different now that I have had so many other issues with myself. Having a disagreement isn't the end of the world. It felt that way before a lot. Because it is the simple things in life that make it worth living right? For a long time I thought the little things are what made life. I know now that is not true. The little things make life great but without the big complicated emotional and social connections, life is really just empty.
Ok... to much deep shit for just a simple blog post. I will leave that to the my big blogs that take like an hour to write and I read over about ten times before posting.
I don't know how I will feel with her in the next room and me not being able to talk with her or see her. It will be strange. But, that is the way it has to be now. because neither one of us can handle it right now. Her because of stress and me because of emotions. We are in the exact same place...LOST. Well I will write later on how it goes. I don't know when she is going to be here. I only know after 9am... it is 10 am now so maybe any moment. I had to leave a note for her... there are things that need splitting and she needs to decide on that stuff too. I even took the time this morning to move a few of my things so she doesn't know everything that is going on in my life. I don't know why I did this... maybe I want to get past not sharing everything little.
Have a good day everyone. I will try to do the same.