Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Blogging again!!!

Hmm... I just realized that I have not blogged in a long time. a short few months ago I couldn't not blog often. I don't feel the need to blog as often anymore. But I think I should... I think blogging was a good form of therapy for me. It taught me a lot about how to write better and more well organized writing. I think the best part of it was the ability to do all of it in a public way. It was an eye opener that so much of who I am was kept so secretive. I didn't intent to live my life that way, I think it was a learned response to the life I have had to this point. Honestly, I am just glad I am not like that anymore.

Well I want to apologize to all my friends that I haven't spoken with in a long time. I took some time off work and disappeared for a bit. I was successful at making myself scarce as you all know already. Now as you can see work is keeping me busy... I am working lots more hours these days and they are going to send me to an install in Cali next week... well that is still in the works and may change. I am hoping not as I have never been to Cali and would like to see the state... I will not be far from Oakland. Other than that I will be working on paperwork and major issues until then. My project list at work is getting long... and I can't seem to make it shorter. It will happen one day and everything will be back to just supporting the customers or making the software solution better.

Sooooo, in other news, for those that didn't know I have a girlfriend now, Olivia!!!! We have been dating a little over 2 months and everything is going great. We have had lots of fun together and I have no complaints about the relationship at all. As you all can see the last few blogs I posted were about this exact subject and as you can read I had lots of doubts about a lot of what was to come. Some of them will still exist and some will always exist no matter what. I think everyone that has been through a tough relationship has the same hesitations and doubts. I don't know if they will ever go away but I hope I always remember the lessons I learned from them. I am more cautious these days, I have grown emotionally more this year than ever before and I feel like I need to be careful with these newly found emotional abilities. I am not going to keep them completely to myself, that just leads to unhappiness. I will just take a little longer before I truly open myself up to people. I just hope I can choose the right time to do that again.

Well my friends... I hope you all have a great night and a great holiday season.